Valentines day, 14th Feb.
Too much love everywhere. Too much cherishing that one special person everywhere.
Everyone says 'Forever' today. No one fights today. Everyone is happy.
We're apart. But I know there's love.
I know you're thinking about me.
I know you miss me.
I know you love me.
You see that girl? She looks so happy, right?
Telling jokes, smiling, and having a great time. But guess what?
She's dying inside. She's hurt. She's tired. Tired of all the drama. Tired of being not good enough. Tired of life. But she doesn't want to show her weakness. So she keeps it all inside. Acts like everything's perfect.
But at night, she cries. Every night, she cries.
You see that girl? She looks happy, right?
Now look through her once, and you'll see the pain.
I've been strong in front of everyone. But I finally gave up, dropped down that fake smile as a tear ran down my cheek and whispered ' I can't do this anymore'
I used to think I couldn't go a day without your smile, without telling you things and hearing your voice back. Then that day arrived, and it was so damn hard. But the next day was harder. And I knew it would get worse and I wasn't going to be okay for a long time. Because losing someone isn't a one time event. It happens over and over again. I lose you every time I hear those songs, or find your shirt in my cupboard. I lose you every time I think about holding you. I lose you every time that i'm breathing. And then I cry myself to sleep. And when I wake up the next morning,
I lose you all over again.
I over-think everything. From how long does it take you to text back, to what your status on your wall meant. It worries me how much I've fallen for you. It worries me cause you've not fallen as hard as I have. I'm losing appetite and i'm losing my sleep. I stay up late, thinking of perfect scenarios. You make me happier than I ever thought i could be. Also, you make me scared than I ever thought I could be.
We've been apart. But you know there's love.
You know I'm thinking about you.
You know I miss you.
You know I love you.
I want you every second. I miss you every time I breathe.
I'm dying for you, my love.
I'm waiting right here where you left me.
I'm waiting for you to come back.
I'm waiting to get back into your arms.
I'm waiting to be yours again.
I'm bleeding. And all I can think about is you.
Bring me back to life.
Save me, love.
Please come back.
I love you beyond death.
Always and forever.
Happy Valentines :')